July 20, 2020 - New Moon in Cancer special report
July 20 NEW MOON CANCER OPPOSE SATURN
The entire span of July 20-23 is a super charged time full of portent and symbolism about the winds of change as they are blowing through our lives. Circle the calendar and pay attention to these days for major developments or omens in your life. More information about this at the close of this new moon report.
The middle of the month represents the most stimulating, challenging and possibly depressing low point of the month. It will be a moment of reckoning for many people that will likely involve significant loss, rejection and/or coming to terms with the realities of the word "limitation."
For many, this is a time of self protective reflexes as the experience of fear and dread (not panic and terror) crystallizes around a pinpoint moment or event; cataclysmic or otherwise. Taking ownership of our choices and actions in life until this moment, including the choices and actions we did NOT take that led us to where we are will be the reflection we can't avoid when we look in a mirror now. Depression is likely. More selfishness and unnecessary cruelty are possible. Pushing people away from us, out of our lives or simply burying something/someone from the past with all the other things that need to be left undisturbed with the dead are also likely. Keeping our mental health intact to avoid spiraling into abject despair is the greatest challenge with this new moon. It is an act of courage to simply "try", as we collectively experience a moment of collective trauma response, together.
Imagine this: You are a simple and poor farmer. Your legs get blown off by an exploding land mine that you stepped on while walking through the field one day. Land mines that were left behind from a war decades ago and were never removed.
The middle of the month represents the most stimulating, challenging and possibly depressing low point of the month. It will be a moment of reckoning for many people that will likely involve significant loss, rejection and/or coming to terms with the realities of the word "limitation."
For many, this is a time of self protective reflexes as the experience of fear and dread (not panic and terror) crystallizes around a pinpoint moment or event; cataclysmic or otherwise. Taking ownership of our choices and actions in life until this moment, including the choices and actions we did NOT take that led us to where we are will be the reflection we can't avoid when we look in a mirror now. Depression is likely. More selfishness and unnecessary cruelty are possible. Pushing people away from us, out of our lives or simply burying something/someone from the past with all the other things that need to be left undisturbed with the dead are also likely. Keeping our mental health intact to avoid spiraling into abject despair is the greatest challenge with this new moon. It is an act of courage to simply "try", as we collectively experience a moment of collective trauma response, together.
Imagine this: You are a simple and poor farmer. Your legs get blown off by an exploding land mine that you stepped on while walking through the field one day. Land mines that were left behind from a war decades ago and were never removed.
There are hundreds of these land mines that everyone around you must navigate around. It is an unwelcome and dangerous fact of life that everyone shares and suffers from. It turns out that one warm, Spring day - one of those land mines had your name on it. Now you have no legs. And you are a farmer not an office worker. And you are poor with no medical insurance.
It is a few months later and you have adjusted as best that you can to being nearly useless for physical labor. And nearly everything must be done by hand with strong legs and back because you can't afford fancy machinery. Even with new prosthetic legs, it is only a minor improvement in what you can do. There are still so much heavy lifting you can no longer do, so much crouching, squatting and throwing heavy things that your legs won't allow you to do now. You are a farmer. This is what farming requires
Circumstances culminate to a point where the limitations of your missing legs is at an undeniable, painful cost right now. Your children are too young to do the heavy work. Your spouse was never as physically strong as you are and is a poor substitute for you. There is a task that needs to be done that you have done a million times becaused no one else can do it because of their physical limitations. Except now you can't do it either. You are a farmer. This is what farming is. This is how you support yourself so your family can eat. And now, no one can do the job - not even you and you can't afford to hire people. You are a farmer not a corporation. There is no "golden parachute" for you.
Circumstances culminate to a point where the limitations of your missing legs is at an undeniable, painful cost right now. Your children are too young to do the heavy work. Your spouse was never as physically strong as you are and is a poor substitute for you. There is a task that needs to be done that you have done a million times becaused no one else can do it because of their physical limitations. Except now you can't do it either. You are a farmer. This is what farming is. This is how you support yourself so your family can eat. And now, no one can do the job - not even you and you can't afford to hire people. You are a farmer not a corporation. There is no "golden parachute" for you.
This is the kind of moment that really gives rise to questioning the meaning of life and what value any of it has when it leads us to these points that we did not voluntarily sign up for. And all those lovely platitudes about karma, and choosing this life spiritually before you were born, forgiveness, crosses to bear and all the other high minded phrases will be the equivalent of someone offering you a pair of tap dancing shoes to make you feel better. Those things only make the person saying it feel better. They do absolutely nothing to solve your problem or make you feel better about your life, do they?
What do people do in moments like this? They do alot of different things but ultimately, they all come to the same cross road and make a decision. Do I continue hating my life and the injustices in it and simply give up? Or do I continue hating my life and the injustices in it and use that rage as fuel to propel me out of this quagmire of self doubt and hopelessness and keep moving until I find a solution to this riddle.
It takes alot of energy to keep yourself from being suicidally depressed. That's why depressed people sleep so much. They-literally-have-no-energy. All their energy gets used up during the waking hours silently talking themselves out of less than ideal solutions and trying not to alarm the folks around them and complicating life further.
It takes alot of energy to keep yourself from being suicidally depressed. That's why depressed people sleep so much. They-literally-have-no-energy. All their energy gets used up during the waking hours silently talking themselves out of less than ideal solutions and trying not to alarm the folks around them and complicating life further.
Depression is exhausting in ways that never-been-depressed people could possibly understand. This pandemic and the near global, economic collapse we are all facing has brought more people closer to the experience of deep depression than they may have ever experienced before while for others, it is the new experience of uncontrolled anxiety. In this way, we are all in it together and sharing a common experience. And this new moon is really going to put a fine point on those experiences.
As you are riding through this new moon and its attendant other celestial patterns (not only the opposition to Saturn now), keep what you just read in mind and keep reminding yourself, this too shall pass.... just not before you are transformed into a deeper, more self aware, empathetic version of yourself or a bigger, monstrous, self absorbed ass than you were when you started. The choice is yours. The experience is not.
How to survive this and get something good from this new moon week:
2) Move on and away from it. Do not wallow in it. Accept that it exists and turn your gaze to the bigger problems at hand that you can and should engage in. You'll know what they are because they have been easy to overlook and ignore. They are always the small, simple things.
3) Focus on what you can improve and don't cling to "symbols" of the life you had before this.
I had a gf who had a mid-life crisis and lost her damn mind. Blew up her marriage, lost her company, and was about to lose both of her houses (yes, two of them. Oh, Pobrecito!, I know. LOL) Long story short, she ended up downsizing her life significantly but refused to give up her Mercedez Benz. Just flatly refused. Could not, would not and did not as if replacing that car with something more modest and less costly to repair was like asking her to let someone cut off her right hand. If you asked her why, she would give you every "material" reason in the world why it made more sense to hang on to it than replace it. It was also obvious without her saying a word that it was really about her hanging on to the last symbol of who she was in her life before her entire life collapsed and had to be rebuilt. She eventually had to replace the car but it was a long, painful and expensive AF process before she finally was forced to release that albatross hanging around her neck. I don't know that she is better for it yet. (After all, self development is a process with milestones to show our progress not a light switch that you turn on and off simply and obviously.) I will say that the literal years and money she wasted clinging to that car could have been spent getting her further toward better solutions in her life. This was part of her process though.
It is easy to tell someone else what they "should do" when the only thing we should do is recognize that this really is what they "can" do at that moment, in their own development. Crawl, walk, then run. It is the only way.
Which is to say that if you find yourself clinging to something that represents your "old life" or who you "were" before the hammer came down, now emphasized with this new moon - this is a good time to ask yourself if this is a trophy you are keeping or an anchor that won't let you move forward.
5) And finally, be a friend to someone by reminding them that they are not their failures. Their value is simply their existence and the joy they bring you, even if it is only in the 3 minutes you see them every day as you cross paths en route to your very different destinations.4) Remind yourself of this until you truly understand and believe it: There's nothing wrong with you. You are in the midst of a developmental process and you are bigger than your old life. Your greatness is within you, not outside you. Search inside to find it.
.Full July report here: July 2020 overview
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